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「我今日成了何等人,是蒙神的恩才成的。」(哥林多前書十五章10節)聖經裡的這句經文放在我身上實在太合適不過了,我是曾珮宜,一個曾經遠離了上帝、深陷毒品漩渦、後被神恩典搭救、走上奉獻道路的基督徒。我生長在香港一個小康之家、衣食無憂,只是父母忙于生意,我自幼被托管給契媽悉心照顧長大,他們全家很愛我,我視他們為親人,和自己家人反而生疏。直到我十二歲的時候,跟著父母一起移民加拿大,不得不離開契媽一家。到了陌生的加拿大重新和生疏已久的家人建立關係,對年幼的我來說非常不容易。我十分思念契媽,又不敢流露出來,所以我的日子非常辛苦。姨丈看到我悶悶不樂,便引導我去教會,只因他說「去教會的孩子不會學壞的」,我就去了教會信主,後來受洗。雖然教會生活很好,可是我很向往呼朋喚友的熱鬧生活,我太需要友情和關懷了,不知不覺我在加拿大的新學校里就結交了一幫喜歡遊玩的學生,天天成群結伴在外遊蕩戲耍,很有朋友義氣的歸屬感,很有隨波逐流的安全感。哪有小孩子不貪玩的呢?逐漸地我就越來越不受學校的約束,去教會也不再規律,我過著自由散漫的生活。我們一群朋友又喜歡去 Disco 舞廳跳舞,裡面品流混雜,一起跳舞認識的朋友們都嗑搖頭丸,自然而然我也就跟著一起嗑丸仔。

然後從 19 歲開始,我結識了一個對我非常好的富家女,她很有錢,經常要求我陪伴她去賭場玩,每次都送給我幾百塊錢去賭。我從此開始抽煙喝酒去賭場的生活,每天都抽煙半包,一不開心就喝酒發泄,我覺得人生就是要有酒消愁啊,用酒送搖頭丸吞下去,使自己昏昏沉沉地「飄」起來,忘記對香港的思念、再醒過來感覺自己很開心、很適應加拿大、目前這樣的生活挺好的。那些離經叛道的日子裡,我白天就裝著去上學,實際上我是跟著富家女去賭場揮霍時間,再也無心向學,以至于在中學差點被停學,而我的父母毫不知情。偶爾在路上看到跟我年齡相仿的乖女孩去上學,她們都笑容燦爛,充滿了陽光氣息,我的心就隱隱作痛,立刻升起一股對她們的嫉妒和自卑。

我渴望溫暖的愛和關懷,卻在一群錯誤的朋友中誤入歧途,沾染到各種壞習慣;沒想到因為渴望愛,我遇到了更錯誤的朋友,我的人生陷入很大的淤泥陷阱里。我交了一個男朋友,他比我大很多,對我非常體貼,看上去也非常富有,被人呵護和寵愛的感覺真美好啊,所以我就和他在一起了。但是不曾想這后面是很可怕的陷阱。他的感情生活很混亂,他有離了婚的前妻,有一個長期的情人,又和我在一起,我在這多角關係中壓力很大,苦惱不已,無數次想離開,卻受不了對愛的饑渴無數次地妥協留下。慢慢地我發現他沒有正當職業,他認為做盜版光碟的生意很賺錢,于是他鼓動我和他一起去制作翻版光碟零售,因為從事非法生意要躲避警察的突襲檢查,我每日除了熬更守夜地印碟片,還要擔驚受怕地躲躲閃閃。此時的痛苦壓力,往日的的抽煙喝酒嗑丸仔已經不再使我麻醉,所以男朋友帶著我一起吸上了大麻和海洛因。

人已經墮落到這個地步還有什么害怕和顧忌的呢?最瘋狂的時候,我們把酒精、大麻、海洛因一起吸下去喝下去!吃完了以后整個人昏迷,神志不清,當時覺得好飄好飄,但是醒了以后靈魂極度的空虛,每次清醒后在安靜的片刻我常常問自己:「曾珮宜,其實妳不是很差、很笨的人啊,從小也是長在很好的環境里面,為什么妳會淪落到這個地步,整個人像廢人一樣?」如此心靈赤誠的問答,每次都讓我對現況很難過,渴望有所改變。所以我有時候會找機會星期天去教會,想尋找上帝的幫助。可是我的男朋友粗暴地制止我回教會或是外出見朋友。每次我要外出,他就狂躁癥發作、暴力囚禁我,罵我或是拿起身邊的物件丟向我,不準我出去。最初我逆來順受,直到朋友提醒我這是非法囚禁,應該去報警!於是我報警,警察發了禁止令給他不能靠近我。我一直相信是神看到了我想迴轉的心,施行了大能救我很容易地就脫離了這個惡魔一樣的男人!

雖然遠離了他,但是我的毒癮還在,還擺脫不了吸毒。但是毒品已經帶給我很多的健康問題,吸毒的后遺癥都出現了,比如說我的內臟功能受到不同程度的傷害,而且還患了痛風。雖然我很年輕,但是已經患上了中老年男性才有的痛風,這些病痛讓我很痛苦,我在想:「我怎么能夠擺脫毒品呢?」這時候,我就感到有一個慈愛的聲音對我說,「曾珮宜,妳要回到神的面前。」好奇怪呀,不知為什么我突然有了很強的信心,就讓我有勇氣、有信心重新回到教會,一有了這樣的信心,我就再也不想吸毒品了,我的毒癮自然而然就消失了!每個人聽到我這樣輕鬆的戒毒都驚嘆這是神的大能奇蹟!

神將我拯救脫離了混亂的、黑暗的生活,我回到了教會——神的家里,我戒了煙、戒了酒、戒了搖頭丸、戒了大麻、戒了海洛因!同時我也開始看醫生、治療健康問題。十五年好像惡夢初醒,可是我也不知道前面的人生怎麼可以重頭來過呢?在一個偶然的機會下我聽到了「多倫多短宣中心」,其實我從來都不是一個好學生,我很害怕讀書,對重新讀書沒什麼把握,所以我靜悄悄地先從旁聽的課程開始,感覺還能承擔。彭師母也勸我不要顧慮,我又聽到神的聲音對我說:「妳試一下三個月的 Part Time 倩青課程啦。」沒想到我也能完成倩青課程的要求,就這樣我一步一步地開始讀短宣中心的全時間課程,神的恩典真是夠用,不知不覺我竟然就快完成兩年全時間的學習了!回顧混亂不堪的成長歷程,我真心感到上帝的救恩偉大非凡,能將一個吸毒女改變為今日的地步!我不得不讚揚主的救恩:「我今日成了何等人,是蒙神的恩才成的。」(哥林多前書十五章10節)

 

喜樂 Joy

喜樂的心乃是良藥;憂傷的靈使骨枯乾。箴言 17:22
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17:22

然而,我要因耶和華歡欣,因救我的 神喜樂。哈巴谷書 3:18
yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Habakkuk 3:18

要常常喜樂,不住的禱告,凡事謝恩。帖撒羅尼迦前書 5:16-17
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17

饒恕 Forgiveness

主啊,你本為良善,樂意饒恕人,有豐盛的慈愛賜給凡求告你的人。詩篇 86:5
You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. Psalm 86:5

你不要說:“我要以惡報惡”;要等候耶和華,他必拯救你。箴言 20:22
Do not say, “I’ll pay you back for this wrong!” Wait for the LORD, and he will avenge you. Proverbs 6:14

你們饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必饒恕你們的過犯;馬太福音 6:14
For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6:14

你們不饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必不饒恕你們的過犯。馬太福音 6:15
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:15

你們各人若不從心裡饒恕你的弟兄,我天父也要這樣待你們了。馬太福音 18:35
This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart. Matthew 18:35

謙卑 Humility

敬畏耶和華是智慧的訓誨;尊榮以前,必有謙卑。箴言 15:33
Wisdom’s instruction is to fear the LORD, and humility comes before honor. Proverbs 15:33

敬畏耶和華心存謙卑,就得富有、尊榮、生命為賞賜。箴言 22:4
Humility is the fear of the LORD; its wages are riches and honor and life. Proverbs 22:4

凡事不可結黨,不可貪圖虛浮的榮耀;只要存心謙卑,各人看別人比自己強。腓立比書 2:3
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Philippians 2:3

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

驕傲 Pride

驕傲來,羞恥也來;謙遜人卻有智慧。箴言 11:2
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. Proverbs 11:2

驕傲只啟爭競;聽勸言的,卻有智慧。箴言 13:10
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Proverbs 13:10

驕傲在敗壞以先;狂心在跌倒之前。箴言 16:18
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

忍耐 Patience

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

並且你們要為我的名,被眾人恨惡,惟有忍耐到底的,必然得救。馬可福音 13:13
Everyone will hate you because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. Mark 13:13

不但如此,就是在患難中也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance. Romans 5:3

我們行善,不可喪志;若不灰心,到了時候就要收成加拉太書 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

你們也當忍耐,堅固你們的心,因為主來的日子近了。雅各書 5:8
You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. James 5:8

溫柔 Meekness

回答柔和,使怒消退;言語暴戾,觸動怒氣。箴言 15:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1

溫柔的人有福了,因為他們必承受地土。馬太福音 5:5
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Matthew 5:5

用溫柔勸戒那抵擋的人;或者 神給他們悔改的心,可以明白真道。提摩太後書 2:25
Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth. 2 Timothy 2:25

只要以裡面存著長久溫柔、安靜的心為妝飾;這在 神面前是極寶貴的。彼得前書 3:4
Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. 1 Peter 3:4

嫉妒 Envy

不要為作惡的心懷不平,也不要向那行不義的生出嫉妒。詩篇 37:1
Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong. Psalm 37:1

心中安靜是肉體的生命;嫉妒是骨中的朽爛。箴言 14:30
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. Proverbs 14:30

在何處有嫉妒、紛爭,就在何處有擾亂和各樣的壞事。雅各書 3:16
For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. James 3:16

生氣 Anger

當止住怒氣,離棄忿怒;不要心懷不平,以致作惡。詩篇 37:8
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. Psalm 37:8

好生氣的人,不可與他結交;暴怒的人,不可與他來往。箴言 22:24
Do not make friends with a hot-tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered. Proverbs 22:24

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

生氣卻不要犯罪.不可含怒到日落。以弗所書 4:26
In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. Ephesians 4:26

我親愛的弟兄們,這是你們所知道的,但你們各人要快快的聽,慢慢的說,慢慢的動怒,因為人的怒氣並不成就 神的義。雅各書 1:19,20
My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. James 1:19,20

災難 Calamity

謹守口與舌的、就保守自己免受災難。箴言 21:23
Those who guard their mouths and their tongues keep themselves from calamity. Proverbs 21:23

民要攻打民、國要攻打國、多處必有地震、饑荒.這都是災難的起頭。馬可福音 13:8
Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains. Mark 13:8

憂愁 Worry

你們不要憂愁、因靠耶和華而得的喜樂是你們的力量。尼希米記 8:10
Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

主雖使人憂愁, 還要照他諸般的慈愛發憐憫。耶利米哀歌 3:32
Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. Lamentations 3:32

凡勞苦擔重擔的人,可以到我這裡來,我就使你們得安息。馬太福音 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

我留下平安給你們、我將我的平安賜給你們.我所賜的、不像世人所賜的.你們心裏不要憂愁、也不要膽怯。約翰福音 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

應當一無掛慮,只要凡事藉著禱告、祈求和感謝,將你們所要的告訴神。神所賜出人意外的平安,必在基督耶穌裡,保守你們的心懷意念。腓立比書 4:6,7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6,7

因此, 你們是大有喜樂, 但如今, 在百般的試煉中暫時憂愁。彼得前書 1:6
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 1 Peter 1:6

患難 Trouble, Suffering

義人多有苦難,但耶和華救他脫離這一切。詩篇 34:19
The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all. Psalm 34:19

神是我們的避難所,是我們的力量,是我們在患難中隨時的幫助!詩篇 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1

耶和華本為善,在患難的日子為人的保障,並且認得那些投靠他的人。那鴻書 1:7
The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him. Nahum 1:7

為義受逼迫的人有福了,因為天國是他們的。馬太福音 5:10
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 5:10

不但如此,就是在患難中,也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; Romans 5:3

我想現在的苦楚,若比將來要顯於我們的榮耀,就不足介意了。羅馬書 8:18
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18

因為你們蒙恩,不但得以信服基督,並要為他受苦。腓立比書 1:29
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him. Philippians 1:29

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